Friday, September 20, 2019
A straight friend of mine stopped in the other day for a chat. He is a few years older than me, a super nice guy, in fact if a little fairy godfather hovered down from the rainbow and asked me what kind of man I wanted, I would say a gay version of Fred. I was surprised to learn a few years ago from his mother, that Fred suffers from depression and break downs. I was completely shocked, he seems so calm, a down to earth type of person. I had no idea.
He was talking about it with me the other day, he sheepishly admitted to having to take drugs to combat some issues. He said that he needs the medication to function properly. He also mentioned how at least now the stigma of mental illness is lifting, that people, especially men, can talk about it now. He said it's upsetting that some people still dismiss mental illness, they say "just get over it" or "there's nothing wrong with them, they just want attention".
The odd thing is that, this in a way reminds me of my being gay, people said the same things about gay people. Once upon a time I wanted everyone to like me, I wanted them to accept me. Now however I don't care.. as in I really don't care because I think people like that are stupid and are choosing to remain stupid. I find the people who are bigoted towards LGBTQ people, mentally ill people, immigrants or unbelievable, even mentally challenged people, are against them because they are too stupid to learn anything about people from these groups.
The result is, I genuinely don't care what they think, to me their opinion is worthless. I also don't want them around me because I find when you talk to people like this, they are so negative, bitter and hate filled, they say ignorant things that make you embarrassed for them, sometimes you even feel sorry for them because they don't realize how dumb they sounded from what they just said. I don't need these kind of people to like me anymore.. I just need them to go away and stop buzzing in my ear.