This evening I was listening to people on tv joking about their first kiss. This had me laughing over the awkward moment of a first kiss. I began thinking about my first kiss and my first real kiss, what the differences were to me. My first kiss was with a girl at 13, I was over at her house and she wanted to know what kissing was like. I could make jokes about it being gross but actually it was nice. Sometimes I feel sorry for the kids today when I think of the difference between our generations. Here we were, two shy kids sneaking a few kisses in before the adults or little brothers caught us. The innocence and complete naivety on our part compared to what goes on between teens these days.
I never really kissed someone again until I was around 25, that's when I met Billy. Back to the drawing board with a first time kiss, only this time, it was my first kissing a guy. We parked somewhere and it felt weird, like we were doing it because we thought we should, I remember both of us felt regret after. I think it was internal homophobia that caused us to feel that way. A few days later we started practicing man on man kissing in order to improve. To be honest, even though Billy was a nice guy, he was the worst kisser ever! He kept doing this open mouth thing that was annoying, half the time I was kissing air, I would have to ask him to close his mouth so that I could make contact.
My first real kiss was with Dan, it's what every love song or romantic poem is about. When my lips first touched his it was electricity, two people bonding into one. I remember our first time, I asked him if I could kiss him, he stared at me for what seemed like an hour and then nodded yes with a cute smile and leaned in. I would later find out he was staring at me on purpose to put me on edge. The first time we kissed, we stayed up all night together just talking and getting to know each other. I say this was my first real kiss because it felt very different to me compared to the others. Like a fairytale, it was my first kiss falling in love.