So I finally did it, I went to my first gay bar last night! There is more to this story though and how it unfolded. I mentioned a while ago that I had made another new friend here in the city, we have spoken on the phone and emailed a few times. The other day we exchanged pictures and I nearly hit the floor, he is a tall ruggedly handsome guy, sooo my type! He asked if we could meet and go out for coffee or a drink, I said yes I would love to. He is a really thoughtful person, we were going to meet at a gay bar but knowing that would be uncomfortable for me, he had us meet for coffee first, and then after go together to the bar. I felt so nervous waiting for him and when he walked in I think my tongue fell out. He was a lot better looking than his picture, and tall, real tall, yeah got to love a tall guy. My legs were shaking like crazy, it felt like they were jello. We had spoke on the phone but meeting in person is so different. He is so down to earth and such a really nice guy. We are starting a friendship but I knew from this guys emails, I would like much more. We hit it off great, I suddenly realized I was making him nervous as well, I liked that feeling. We finished our drinks and headed out to the bar.
On our way there, he had this big grin on his face, he asked if I would go to a 'shop' with him. I knew what was coming so I said sure. He took me into a gay sex shop, he was kind of laughing and I know he was doing it to tease me but he also turned around and seriously said that if I felt uncomfortable we could leave at any second. I looked around at all the things that will never ever touch my body. It was fun to have friend with me in there. I did not think until after that I should have bought a T shirt. We walked out and smack into my cousin's husband, crap, busted, see told you it is a small town! Oh well, hopefully he did not see where I came from, we talked a little, really there is nothing I can do about it now and honestly I am only mildly bothered about it.
We went to the bar, it is more of a bar to relax in, like a gay cheers. It was almost all men, maybe four or five real women in total. Just joking about the real women part, no drag there, a lot of guys dressed up, after a day at the office types. Most actually looked straight to be honest or I should say you could not tell them from straight guys in a group setting. I liked it, friendly place and it was nice to be able to openly talk about gay issues and relationships. It was also nice that the people around us were talking about the same things. It was awesome to go with someone else and not have to walk in alone. I was a bit on the defensive at first if another guy came to close to me tough, then finally I realized someone is not going to come up and hit on me. Even if they did, it is kind of a good thing and I can always respectfully decline.
The guy, lets call him Dave. We got along so well, like I said Dave is a real easy going, down to earth guy, funny, easy to talk to and the more I got to know him, the more I want to get to know him! We talked for hours and by the end of the night he was sitting very close to me, he is a total gentleman so no jumping into bed and he is a romantic at heart from what I can tell. I was under a spell staring into his soft brown eyes as he spoke to me, he even smelled good and I don't mean cologne, I mean his body, every now and then he would touch my leg, arm or shoulder and it would send a charge through me, I felt so alive. I think we both really opened up to each other, he is one of those people that you meet and feel like you have always known him. Finally we had to go, I did not want the night to end. When I got home, I knew I was really taken by him. I worried all night if he liked me, was my hair okay, did I look good, would I ever have a chance with him, what did he think of me. I worried that he would not consider dating me since I am only coming out. He is totally someone I would like to try dating. This morning I think I got my answer. He emailed me at seven this morning to say what a nice time he had and that he thought I was handsome. Then after he emailed me some pictures and jokes. I think that is a sign, yes?
Well yes you better believe we made plans to meet again, he wants to take me in a few weeks to Montreal, they have a much better gay night life there. They also have male strip bars there, not that it is really my thing, just it is something I want to experience at least once, so I asked and he agreed. I can't wait! The other strange thing is that Friday I have another coffee date, and this guy seems pretty down to earth as well. If we hit it off, how strange will it be that I have two really nice guys that may want to date me after all this time alone!