Tuesday, May 1, 2018

Thanks for asking.

 When I went to visit my friend Eric, he asked me a question that startled me, it shouldn't have but it did. We were enjoying the sunshine in his back yard and having a drink, when he asked, "so do you have a partner"? Nobody ever asks me that, sometimes I forget that he knows about me. He has always been a supporter of mine, he has always wanted me to have everything relationship wise, even before he knew. Imagine me with a partner, sounds so odd. Yes maybe not to you but it's a little shocking to me when I say that over my entire life, I have only been in a real, full on relationship for less than three years.

 When he asked, I said no and he said surprised  "NO"? Again I answered no and he sounded a little sad for me, "no, awe Steve why"? I could tell he knew why, that's me, that's Steve, then he joked about there not being a large selection of gay men in my area, if any. The interesting thing however was that it felt great to be asked that question, (if I had someone). It felt nice to be able to talk about dating with someone and doing it truthfully, it felt real. At first it made me a little uncomfortable but then it just comes naturally. It would have felt even better if I had been able to gush about someone to him but maybe some day.

6 comments:

Deedles said...

Okay, *sniff*, consider yourself smotheringly hugged! Don't try using smotheringly when playing a word game. It's one of mine.

Old Lurker said...

See? That wasn't so bad. Talking to people in real life can be helpful. But you should not be so surprised at Eric's question. We have been asking you the same thing for months, complete with the "awwww" in our responses.

Anonymous said...

I think it was great he asked you about a partner. And someday you will have a special guy in your life.

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Deedles, I love a good hug! Thank you :)

I pledge to never use smotheringly in a game!

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Mr Lurker, you mean I have to do this more than once!?!

Sooo-this-is-me said...

RJ, he actually met my last boyfriend, they got along great, it was kind of funny because they both knew me so well and they were laughing at all the quirky things I do. Yes they ganged up on me lol.