When I went to visit my friend Eric, he asked me a question that startled me, it shouldn't have but it did. We were enjoying the sunshine in his back yard and having a drink, when he asked, "so do you have a partner"? Nobody ever asks me that, sometimes I forget that he knows about me. He has always been a supporter of mine, he has always wanted me to have everything relationship wise, even before he knew. Imagine me with a partner, sounds so odd. Yes maybe not to you but it's a little shocking to me when I say that over my entire life, I have only been in a real, full on relationship for less than three years.
When he asked, I said no and he said surprised "NO"? Again I answered no and he sounded a little sad for me, "no, awe Steve why"? I could tell he knew why, that's me, that's Steve, then he joked about there not being a large selection of gay men in my area, if any. The interesting thing however was that it felt great to be asked that question, (if I had someone). It felt nice to be able to talk about dating with someone and doing it truthfully, it felt real. At first it made me a little uncomfortable but then it just comes naturally. It would have felt even better if I had been able to gush about someone to him but maybe some day.