Friday, February 9, 2018

I will do better next time.

Valentine's day is approaching, makes me think of my first Valentine's with Dan. I never paid any attention to it in my younger years but as I was coming out, it did bother me. Society at that time almost indicated that you were worthless if you didn't have a date for Valentine's day. Dan and I had just started dating, I invited him over for supper that evening. It was actually more of a date than for Valentine's. The cute thing was, neither one of us really knew the other. I didn't know how serious his personality was or romantic or comical. I had bought him a card, just for fun actually. When he came over I started feeling stupid, I wasn't some schoolgirl giving a boy she liked a card. I took his coat and got him a drink. Then I sheepishly gave him the card, he looked puzzled. I had to remind him it was Valentine's day, he just said "oh" or something to that effect. I felt really immature at that point and wished I could go back in time. Then suddenly Dan had this silly grin on his face, went and got his coat and pulled out a card, plus a little bear sitting on a box of candy. I was happy to see were alike in our thinking and that he had that romantic playful side to him.

It's strange, I think the next year for us was big regarding Valentine's day but after that it didn't have the same meaning. I guess it's the feeling of the grass being greener on the other side of the fence. When I didn't have a boyfriend, days like Valentine's were big events where I had to sit on the sidelines but when I did have someone, I didn't think they had that much importance.

Dear universe, give me another chance, let me find another sweet guy. I will try harder this time. I now see my mistakes regarding the last decent guy, I will do better, I learned my lesson. Just don't send another guy who doesn't like sex, I mean come on most guys....... well you know. I think I understand more, I think I'm more open minded, I think I'm ready. Please dear universe, my guy is out there but I find a canyon between us and I need a bridge.


Anonymous said...

Me too! Universe: please?!

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Walter, hey dude.... me first, wait your turn! Lol

Old Lurker said...

The universe called and left a message. You can have another chance and get yourself a sweet new boyfriend, but you have to go looking for him, and that might mean kissing a few frogs along the way. Get thee to ChristianMingle and sign up for an account. If you are worried about the news in Toronto then you can screen appropriately on your dating profile: "No serial killers please."

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Mr Lurker, I find most of the men on dating sites are just looking to hook up or worse, they are escorts. Any that seem decent want a twenty five year-old that looks like Ryan Gosselin. There is a gay dating site called CHRISTIAN Mingle?!? You are completely correct however, I'm not looking hard enough.

Old Lurker said...

There is in fact a dating site called ChristianMingle. They used to restrict themselves to mixed-sex coupling but then they lost a discrimination lawsuit and had to allow people to look for same-sex matches. Maybe your next boyfriend is there, looking for you.

I don't know whether you are 25 years old or how closely you resemble Ryan Gosselin, but you are cute, witty, employed, live in the countryside and are good with an axe. If you are addicted to crystal meth you do a good job of hiding it on the blog. Live! Live! Life is a banquet, and some sorry sons of bitches are starving!

Sooo-this-is-me said...

I'm not really sure what crystal meth is to be honest, lol so no I don't have a meth habit. Maybe I should include that in my profile? XD