Sunday, October 7, 2018

Spilling Time.


 I think as we get older we begin to appreciate time more, one day we wake up and realize that time is not limitless, it has an expiration date. I was thinking about all the things in life we do that are a complete waste of time, the odd thing is at that moment in our life, we often don't realize that we are wasting time, we may even think that we are accomplishing something. It's kind of like having a bottle of the most refreshing drink that you could ever imagine. Do you savor every drop or are you careless and spill it... gone forever when it soaks into the earth.

 I often feel that I was careless, that I spilled my bottle. Part was done on purpose, I was/am a master procrastinator, also I confess that I could certainly have been a lot more ambitious in life. On the other hand I try to tell myself not to look back, past mistakes and bad choices were from the inexperience of youth. I learned from the mistakes I made because I saw how things didn't work out.

 October already, how did the month sneak up on me so fast. Fall usually makes me melancholy, it gets worse as I age. A large part of it comes from my mother, she hated winter so much that she would get upset at the prospect of the last week of August. I think the problem with the perception of fall, is that it signals the end of everything before winter's grip takes hold. I try not to be like mom, I try to embrace fall, for example the colours, the cool nights, snuggling up with a hot drink, a warm fire place, Halloween and everything that comes with it, the fall harvests, especially apples, apple crumble, apple tarts, apple pie, well you get the picture, did I mention apple turnovers. Fall really is a nice time of year and I want to train myself to enjoy it, there is no use wasting time worrying about what season comes after. The cut off point here is Halloween, after that the colours are gone, like my mood everything turns a dreary November grey so I allow myself to grumble when the time comes. Until then however I am savoring the final drops of fall.

9 comments:

Debra She Who Seeks said...

I have always loved autumn. It's much too short, though.

Sixpence Notthewiser said...

Fall can be pretty and mellow. It's a little abrupt sometimes, but I find it pretty. Much more pleasant than winter near the lake, that's for sure.

anne marie in philly said...

autumn IS pretty; savor it!

Mike said...

Autumn is my favorite time of the year, for all the usual reasons of fall colors, smells and comfort food. Growing up, it was the welcome return to school where I knew what was expected of me. As an adult I get to enjoy my natural melancholy after three months of 'why aren't I having as much fun as everyone else?' Actually, the best part of summer -- Indian Summer -- occurs in autumn. We're enjoying that now. Too bad autumn lasts only six weeks, the short period between September 20-22 and November 1 when all the Christmas nonsense begins. Why do we let the big winter celebration steal half the autumn before winter actually begins? When you think about it, the only season that can't disappoint is winter.

Pardon my dark view of the seasons.

Richard said...

It's snowing in the high country here but we're only getting rain in the city. I think you've got a good attitude about fall. Focus of the positive aspects.

Old Lurker said...

There is only one solution to letting time spill away unnoticed: spending more time on dating sites and Grindr.

Call me a seasonphobe, but I do not acknowledge the existence of fall. Before the snow falls everything is so dark, and after the snow falls everything is so horrible. As far as I am concerned fall is just a precursor to W I N T E R.

Michael said...

Fall is actually my favorite season. And autumn is a time for introverts! Check this out: https://www.learning-mind.com/introverts-love-autumn/

mistress maddie said...

I am just like your mother in her thoughts of summer ending before fall. I love summer the most, but autumn is very pretty and it has become my second favorite season. I too like winter, but only when the snow is freshly fallen. Then it can melt away....

JohnMichael said...

OMG...I just wrote about it suddenly being October!!