Monday, March 30, 2020

Just not up to it.

 I'm just not up to posting, this plague has taken the joy completely out of life. I try to do things to take my mind off of the virus but it creeps into everything we do. Even going to the washroom for Pete's sake, who doesn't think of COVID 19 while staring at the toilet paper roll! The phone rang, "hello Steven, we regret to inform you that your mother is ill".. great.. that's all I needed to hear. Fortunately it appears that it's not COVID 19. It's either a cold or mild flu. The hard thing is they asked if they could lock mom in her room with a camera on her. I said yes because the alternative is she would have to go to a hospital and I don't want that. She wants to walk around and that would infect everyone else. Yup, mom is sick and locked in her room alone all day, life is a peach isn't it.

 I worry about mom in the home, people still manage to get in to visit. They don't understand that it's better to stay away right now. They think they won't get sick and bring it in. In reality it's usually stupid people like that who spread the virus. A couple of days ago the virus got into a nursing home in Ontario... boom... 9 dead!!!

 The other thing that made my stomach sick and frightened me to the point of not being able to think, was something that happened between Mr X and I. The count down for my boyfriend's quarantine had ended. Naturally we spent the day together and it was nice. However by the end of the following day, he was really ill. Typical for Mr Bean (me) and his adventures. Seriously wouldn't that be typical for me to get the virus.. for him to be healthy right up to the day we reunited and then suddenly fall ill. Fortunately he is feeling much better today, it looks like a flu bug, the symptoms are not that of COVID. It would make sense that I didn't get the flu from him because I always get the shot and he didn't. It does however show you no matter how careful we are, a virus can still infect us.

 They're talking again today about closing the borders between Quebec and Ontario. I'm okay with that, I'm really tired of feeling scared. I have enough food until July, I'll just hide here. I'll text and call my bf like crazy, hopefully absence makes the heart grow fonder. I heard a radio host that I trust, say this morning that things are going to get really bad over the next two weeks in Canada but to not lose hope because things will begin to turn around. Already some people with mild symptoms have recovered, that means herd immunity is starting to build, another way to break the chain.

 Mistress Maddie really cheered me up this morning with a spoof on a scene from The Sound of Music. I haven't felt that good in days. He swiped it apparently from Jon's blog which is all good because I'm going to steal it from one of you two! There... hmmm, maybe blogging does make things feel better. Stay safe everyone.


Bathwater said...

I am thankful my dad passed away back in January before all this struck. I would not want him having to deal with this too as sick as he was.

Mistress Maddie said...

When Living alone like we do, I feel the blog is more important than ever. Common shares, discussions and just fun nonsense has and will get people through things like this. Phones calls and emailing, I can't seem to keep up with it...but it's good.

The Lad wanted to come for a visit. he traveled also when this broke out, but I just don't feel comfortable yet in case he carry's it and didn't actually have it. My luck, Ill get it. I no I never show it, but the week is about to get tough.

Jimmy said...

Oddly, I'm not scared or frightened. We take all the precautions,washing hands, wiping everything down before it enters the house. No shoes inside as it can be on the bottom of your shoes. I wear a mask and gloves when I have to go out. But when you've done everything and you still get it, it is just your time.

We are a hot spot of South Florida. 20 cases within 3/4 mile from us (in a condo) as of last Wednesday. They have stopped giving reports. I think the lockdown for us and Miami has been extended to the end of May, so I read. But these days you can't believe everything you read.

Perhaps Mr X should make a country retreat at your place. Much safer and happier!

Deedles said...

Mr X didn't get sick until after you two met up again? Sounds like an allergic reaction to you, in my opinion :) That's the way things go with you Mr. Bean. I'm not being facetious (I even spelled it right) when I say, try not to dwell on the crisis. Do not molest the toilet paper, it is apparently more important during a virus that effects the lungs than during the flu. I feel for your mom but it is safer for her and everyone else. Stupid people are going to be stupid and it is unfair to everybody else. If we dwell on the things we can't change, we only get more depressed. Read upbeat blog posts, like Maddie's "What makes you happy?". Music, music, music! Wash your hands. Sing to them as you do (I don't know why). Big hugs, sweetie.

John Going Gently said...

Chin up tits out

Michael said...

I am finding that I cannot watch the news anymore because I start to worry. Stay safe and healthy.

Sixpence Notthewiser said...

Hope your mom gets better soon.
I can’t understand either how is it that people don’t understand that they could kill their loved one AND eighty other people by trying to be ‘nice’. It’s simple: we make the sacrifice for them. We’ll have time to visit them one the curve is flat.

And blogging is now more essential than ever. Really. I literally have blogging blocks during the day to keep me busy 😎

Pity about Mr. X! Hope he’s feeling better!


Dave R said...

Hope your Mom feels better soon. My Mom had dementia, however she loved going to the hospital. The Home would call and say they just shipped her out and at the end of the month I'd get a nice bill for a non-life threatening ambulance ride.

and I have to ask... do you really stare at your roll of toilet paper?

Bob said...

I think, unless the person lives with you, then it's safest to stay away. Not just for yourself, but for everyone you may come into contact with.

At our house it's me and Carlos and the pets and has been for the last 11 days. The only time we interact is at the grocery store once a week.

Debra She Who Seeks said...

It is so tough to have a parent in a nursing home right now, the extra worry, the extra fear. I hope your Mom's illness doesn't last long until she is feeling better again.

Mistress Maddie said...

Bob's advice is right. Im starting to hear to many horror stories. Anyone I know who has traveled with in the last 15 days, I love them, but as Kelly Clarkson sang....

Miss independent
Miss self-sufficient
Miss keep your distance
Miss unafraid
Miss out of my way.

RJ said...

I concur with John Going Gently. It will get better.

HuntleyBiGuy said...

Only when he’s not contemplating his navel.

HuntleyBiGuy said...

I missed your musings, Steven. I was hoping you were ok.

I’m sorry to hear about your mom. Hopefully she’ll get better soon. I know it was a tough decision to have them lock her in her room, but as you said, it’s best for all involved.

And Mr. X gets sick too? When it rains, it pours. I’m glad he’s on the mend.

Keep the sunshine in your day. It will all get better.

larrymuffin said...

Sorry to hear about your Mom. Here in PEI the bridge to the mainland in N.B. is closed and NO one can come to the Island or leave it. Some tried this past weekend and the Police turned away 93 cars. The last ferry boat left for the Magdalene Island and there are no ferries to N.S. Every night we get the PEI Premier talking to Islanders and we also get the Chief Medical Officer informing people how we are doing. These news briefings take on an air of a family discussion amongst a close knit group. Tonight the Premier Dennis King was angry at some Islanders for not obeying the self-Isolation rule 14 days and some not practicing social distancing. So now you get caught and the fine can be anywhere from $1000 to $10K. No one can visit relatives in Hospitals or seniors home, unless they are dying and then only 1 person can be present. We only have 18 cases so far and all are at home, one has recovered. So we have been lucky but I am afraid it is going to get much worse before it gets better. But we have to have hope, no point in feeling down. The Sun will come out tomorrow as they sing in the song. Take care Steven.

Christina said...

So sorry about your mum, Steven. My dad is 87 and has had a letter from the government stating he must not leave his home until mid June. He lives alone and used to go out everyday. It's hard for him. I'm his only child but luckily we live close to each other. I'm only going shopping once a fortnight, for us and dad and to collect prescription.

It really is best we stay home even though it's hard.

I try to think, "I'm not trapped at home, I'm safe at home."

Take care, keep blogging. It's good to talk. Xx

Ur-spo said...

These are legitimate worries and fears on your part.
Blog when you can; I can speak for all we enjoy hearing about you even in times of sorrow.

Jennifer said...

That's really scary about your mom, but it sounds like the place where she's at is taking every precaution and I'm certain the vast majority of patients in long term care are going to be just fine. As for your friends flu/virus....I completely understand. My husband had what we were pretty sure was the regular flu at the beginning of March. I didn't catch it from him, which made sense since I had had a flu shot back in October. Then when all this coronavirus shit got serious and we started staying home together (and he was still recovering) I started to get sick. Of course I was super paranoid and just sure that I had caught Covid-19, but a week later and I'm much better and it looks like it was either just a mild flu or a regular cold. I'm sure that's all that's going on with you, too. Pollen is bad in SC right now and everyone with allergies (me included) is paranoid. All this is to say: I understand. We're all in this together. Hang in there and surely most of us will come out the other side unscathed. We ust have to keep the faith and continue washing hands and taking sensible precautions. As John says, "Chin up, tits out!"