Monday, July 30, 2018

Now "I" was the jerk!


 I am lazy about blogging, I think it's because of it being summer and there are outside things I should be doing. I'm so useless now compared to what I could get done ten years ago.

 This time I was a big fat insensitive jerk! I have been communicating with a couple of guys that I am interested in dating, two I have met so far. What I failed to pay attention to, was one guy I had become friends with, he is a little odd, a little geeky not someone I see myself dating. However he is really excited to have made a gay friend. I know he is lonely, he is older than me and is not fully out.

 This guy is an open book with me, clearly he wants a friendship and maybe more. Unlike the other guys who make me feel like I'm pulling teeth to get a response from them at times, he sends me long emails and usually promptly after I send him one. The other day he sent me an email telling me more about what his interests are, questions about me, my interests etc, etc. I was meeting and chatting with the other guys and forgot to reply for a...... week! He then sent me an email saying he can read between the lines, that I wasn't that interested in knowing him, he was sorry to have bothered me and he wished me luck. Oh boy did I feel like dog doo, he was partly right, I did find him a little annoying but at any other time, I would have embraced the friendship.

 I did some major butt kissing and apologizing, I never want to make someone feel less than appreciated, quirks or no quirks, he is a nice guy and deserved better from me. I was thinking about how hurt I would feel if a new friend brushed me aside for someone else. I confided in another blogger (who I trust) and he confirmed that I was garbage and I should feel like the pile of garbage I am, (lol you can claim your chastising if you're brave enough).

 Anyway I'm in the works to meet this guy and who knows, life being as strange as it is, maybe this will turn out to be my future husband. The point of this post however is I'm a jerk, a big fat mean jerk.

22 comments:

anne marie in philly said...

if you made your apology sincere and contrite and heartfelt, then the guy should accept. I do hope you will meetup! let this be a lesson unto you! :)

Old Lurker said...

Now, now. Don't be so hard on yourself. You aren't so fat.

Mike said...

Ouch!

Why would you want to meet a guy who DIDN'T have quirks??? You'd fall asleep right in the middle of Starbucks.

Anonymous said...

You're learning to navigate new waters. Allow yourself to make mistakes. You'll click with some, you won't with others. That's just how things go. Beware of anyone who will try to manipulate you by playing with your emotions or try to make you feel guilty; they don't make the best of friends. Good friendships are cultivated, over time. They're not rushed...they just happen. Go out, have fun, enjoy yourself. The guys will sort themselves out — eventually.

Anonymous said...

You made amends. Time to move on and meet the guy.

JohnMichael said...

Oh my gosh...I can't believe you! You really aren't a jerk and are usually very responsive with emails and even using headsets to talk to friends. I know from experience that you are really good about responding.

But the description you just gave about blowing someone off--yes, I agree you were pure jerk! One of the popular kids at the popular table who ignored the one person who would probably always be there for you and would be a true friend.

LOL! You know I adore you!

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Yes Anne Marie he accepted thankfully. This should have been a lesson but.....

Sooo-this-is-me said...

OL, it takes one to know one!

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Mike, true they can't all be perfect like me. Lol

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Walter good comment, especially after what I did today, I did a bigger boo boo!

Sooo-this-is-me said...

I know who are anonymous!!! I want sexy nude pics of you!!! Lol

Sooo-this-is-me said...

JM, wow with friends like you.... who needs enemies, hahaha! Oh you are so going to be disappointed in me when you find out what I did!

Old Lurker said...

Well, what did you do? How are we going to judge you if you keep these things to yourself?

Deedles said...

Wow! I go camping for a few days and you fall into complete garbagy jerkitude! DUDE!! What up wid dat?

Mistress Maddie said...

If anyone is going to crack Steven's ass with a whip it will be me.

Deedles said...

Steven, honey, sugarpop, you do know that I was just jerking *cough* your chain don't you? It is hard to tell in writing. You get so hard on yourself sometimes, that I hate to pile on. Of course, we all love you here, and I'm sure that Maddie will crack that whip with tender loving care.

Sooo-this-is-me said...

OL, hey you don't get to just reappear and demand answers! We thought you were dead! :p

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Miss Deedles, I no be see'n my invite to go camp'n, dats what up wid dat! :)

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Maddie, promises, promises, I bet you say that to all the boys!
I live on a farm, my whip is bigger!

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Deedles, you worry too much, I get your humor, you can relax, you make me laugh, don't change a thing!
Now about that whip, I want Maddie to spank that ass for being the naughty naughty boy I am!

Old Lurker said...

We should have all been so fortunate. Maybe next time.

Sooo-this-is-me said...

OL, nah don't say that, you're kinda like Oscar the grouch on Sesame Street, everyone misses him when he's not around. XD