Friday, February 3, 2017
Clouds are Breaking.
For a while now I have found myself surrounded by sadness, there comes a point where it takes over. I guess I have reached a point in my life where most things seem to be an ending of some sort. People and places important to me no longer exist and it's all because of time passing. Luckily I have a good neighbour, she looks out for me, she constantly says "remember this too shall pass" whenever a disaster appears to be heading towards me. I didn't want to be one of those bloggers who's posts give you that constant feeling of a rain cloud showering over your head as you read it, so I stayed quiet. No point in complaining, its just life, there is nothing I can do about most things that are weighing on me. One day there comes a time when you have to accept the fact that when a door closes, it stays closed, there is no window, there isn't always a happy ending. ....................................... The fog is lifting for me, the clouds are breaking, I am tired of feeling sad, the days are getting longer, spring is coming. I was telling my neighbour I need to make changes now, this house no longer feels like home, more like a museum to Mom and Dad. Every drawer, cupboard, box or door I open sends me back to some memory of years ago but now it feels more like opening a wound because after the rush of happiness, comes the reality that I am alone now. This I think most people would agree is probably not that healthy. I am bracing myself to begin to say goodbye to everything that was a part of my life journey, but I'm ready now... almost... sort of.... I think.