I Know It's Sappy But...

One of my worries in life was that I would never know what being in love felt like, real love, not just an infatuation. I remember the first guy I went out with, he was cute enough, brilliant, successful, and we had a lot of the same interests,(wait why did I let him get away) but there seemed to be something missing. I remember asking people how did someone know if they are in love. I think if you are asking that question, you already know what the answer is but are to afraid to admit it. ............................................ When I met my last boyfriend, I didn't have to ask that question, it was completely different, even though it eventually didn't work out, I really loved him, would never want to erase that part of my life and I still have feelings for him in some way. I would like to get back to that type of relationship, that's a life experience everyone should have, being in love with someone. ............................................ I would like my own version of something that happened to a couple of friends of mine, come true for me, and I have even dreamt a version or two of the following. ............................................ I am on a date with someone I love, we have been seeing each other for some time. He seems distracted over dinner but says everything is fine. After dinner we go for a walk, somewhere relaxing, in a park, maybe along a quiet river. We talk about mundane things, suddenly I realize he is not beside me and I turn to see what is wrong. He is tying his shoe or suffering a leg cramp and as I walk back to see what is wrong, he looks up at me and holds out a little box with a ring in it, he is on one knee. There is a rushing sound in my ears as the realization of what is happening sinks in. ................................................. I know, I know, that is just so sappy but I would love it if that happened to me. Trust me, I can hear the groans but I love a bit of romance. That has happened to some of my straight friends, I even remember laughing over one woman thought her boyfriend at the time was trying to work out a leg cramp because he was bending down, then finally understood what he was doing. I am not into drama but a little in a positive way would be nice.