Why are you hear? Looking inward II.

I caught you (me), why are you here Steven (me), what are you looking for? You know that when you are blogging it's because you are not functioning in the real world. You are trying to get back a memory, a feeling, a moment in time but that is in the past. You're looking for that friendship you gained when you first started blogging about wanting to come out. This blog served the purpose but times have changed. Look at the email you received yesterday from an old blog buddy, look how he has moved on to better, much, much better things. Time to try and do the same, every time you post from now on, will be a mark of failure. Your cell is not a buddy, your computer is not a buddy, they can't hug you or help you or have apple crumble with you, what are you doing here. Steven (me) you can't continue to do nothing and then whine about being lonely, your efforts are 100% of the results you will get, either successful or failure. Another thing, pick a better class of people than "you know", if a new friend requires that you be better, then be better and keep them around. If they require nothing of you, then that friendship is worth nothing, and you shouldn't be friends with someone, that you often try to figure out whether they are telling you the truth or not. Everything here is EVERYTHING that you already know and yet you avoid. Coward, you can't hide from me (myself) I know every thought dummy, you are afraid like with Dan, that once someone gets to know you, they will reject you. Big deal, that's life, poop happens. Like everyone else in the world you move on from there, you will never gain any kind of experience from trying nothing.