Saturday, September 29, 2018

Comfortably Gay.


 I sometimes surprise myself with how comfortable I have become with being gay. This didn't happen overnight it was years in the making. I think back to a time when I would have completely denied being gay, even if you walked in on me having sex with two guys while gay porn played on the VCR to pumping dance tunes..... and wearing glitter, well you get the idea. As a side note, how sad is it that the spell checker doesn't recognize "VCR" but auto corrects Kardashian.

 A few days ago I was getting medication for my mother and the pharmacist technician behind the counter, came out to speak with me. This man is very, very gay, he is a cute little guy of about 5'6, he has a comical perky type of personality. He came up to me and said "Hi Andrew, Mike, Denis"? I laughed pointing to myself saying Steve! I was wondering what he wanted, I didn't realize he came out to take my requests as there were people ahead of me being served. I asked what he wanted and he said as a joke, "I'm wondering if you are free tonight" then he laughed and asked for the prescriptions. I handed him the prescription and said "why yes I am free tonight", he looked at me startled! I figured now it's my turn to catch him off guard. Again I said, "I am free tonight", he didn't know what to say, he was a little taken back, he blushed a little, he was probably wondering if I was joking. Actually I was half joking, if he became bold and asked me out, I was ready to go out with him, I think he is adorable, like a carebear.

 I went to sit down and wait for the prescription to be filled. After I paid for the medication at the cashier, I watched for him as I was leaving, I didn't see him which was sad because I had an answer ready for him, should he asked could he do anything else for me, I was going to say, "yes, why don't you give me your phone number". I would have really rattled his cage, that would have been funny. Either way I figured there would be no harm in it, he would either say he was with someone and no thanks or we would have been going out.

 Later that evening I was thinking about our flirting, I was doing it with people around, in the area where I grew up, plus even just the fact that I did it was a huge leap for me. I didn't feel worried after, about who may have overheard or saw what was happening, I don't care. A few days later I was back, as I started to request my order he pretended not to understand me, then he said to me that I have to speak French to him. I did speak French to him, he seemed surprised, he said "I'm impressed" I said thanks and then told him he is a brat! He said "I'm a what"?  We both burst out laughing.

 He is around my age but is a small guy, I find him cute, he's slightly effeminate but it works for him. I'm usually attracted to masculine men, I like to think that I'm masculine-ish in personality, slightly nerdy, slightly awkward; however this man presses all my alpha male buttons, I would like to be the top to his bottom. It felt good to flirt and I never even thought of it as a gay thing, just me teasing another person I was interested in... who happened to also be a man. Maybe I can get myself a good deal on drugs as well... lol.    

20 comments:

Sixpence Notthewiser said...

Well, good for you. It takes time, I guess. Not everybody is as comfortable with their sexuality as your pharmacist technician. 😎

anne marie in philly said...

so did you get his phone number?

Deedles said...

"Are you free tonight?", my first response probably would've been "No, but I give discounts." It's probably a good thing I'm terminally married or I'd be crashing and burning all over the place!
You are too cute, Steve, and it's good to see you more comfortable in your own skin.

Cali-Boi said...

"having sex with two guys while gay porn played on the VCR to pumping dance tunes..... and wearing glitter" You mean it doesn't happen every night??? Do you want me to arrange that????lmao. No flirting is good and healthy for you. Sometimes gets me into trouble.

Debra She Who Seeks said...

Openly flirting in your community -- good for you!

Old Lurker said...

Cali-Boi still has a VCR?

Look at that. You flirted with another gay person without a dating website or hookup app. Maybe you really are living in the 1980s.

John Going Gently said...

Next time write your number on the prescription!

Richard said...

Quelle surprise! If you keep it up, you'll be going to circuit parties and vacationing in P-town.

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Sixpence, I think that guy probably had to learn to deal with his sexuality long, long ago. Even a tree could tell he's gay. Lol

Mistress Maddie said...

I can't wait for your next physical already! Wait till the your doctor asks you out while feeling up your balls.

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Anne Marie, no but I'm working on it lol. There is another gay man working there, I don't see that as a coincidence in a small town, they could be a couple so I need to be respectful, at least I might get a friendship out of it.

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Deedles, that's a hilarious comeback, I'm going to use it next time.... well if there is ever a next time. :)

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Cali-Boi you may be surprised to know that my weekends are nothing like your weekends lol.

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Debra, you know what they say, practice makes perfect! ;)

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Wow, OL you know what a VCR is? I picture you turning the handle to listen to your music! :D
I think I want to go back to the 1980, at least back then they asked you your name before you have sex, not after.

Sooo-this-is-me said...

John, sounds like a plan or I could ask for his business card.

Sooo-this-is-me said...

My sister used to go there... I think that's the place. I want to go and run with the herd!

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Maddie, is that before or after he sticks his fingers in my...... O.O

Old Lurker said...

I'm not saying I ever had a VCR. But I try to keep up with the trends of what kids are up to these days.

It might not be bad living in the 1980s, except the entire HIV/AIDS part. But I don't think it was customary practice to take names before having sex then, either.

I hope you are doing okay, and that your mother is stabilizing.

Sooo-this-is-me said...

OL of course they gave their names back then, it was much easier because everyone was called John Smith.
I stopped at my DVD player, everything after that is off my radar.