The Clock Keeps Ticking.

  I'm just wondering how everyone feels about this, as I get older I have this sense of losing time, I don't mean being distracted, I mean time is running out. I find myself being very envious of my family and friends that were fortunate to land government jobs. Since we are mostly around the same age, they are all either retired or retiring. It's not that I don't think they deserve being retired, I just wish I could be retired as well. I actually like working but I wish it was part time, I feel like I'm missing out on life and I can't get that time back. I've reached that point in life where I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel, as a train barreling down on me. 

 I'm not trying to sound depressed or anything like that because I'm definitely not, it's just some days I will think to myself, "it's a beautiful day out, I only have a certain number of those left and I'm stuck in here working at a desk". This feeling is getting stronger and stronger, sometimes almost a sense of urgency to it. 

 The other thing that gets to me is the way life can throw curve balls. Some of my older cousins and friends have done everything right, they took good care of their health, they had good jobs with benefits and pensions, they retired with no debts, they were about to start enjoying life.. but suddenly have been handed life altering illnesses, they will not be enjoying retirement. That is one thing I learned after how things turned out with my parents, you can never know how life will turn out. 

It's a beautiful cool Saturday morning, I'm here at the farm. I am going out to enjoy my garden. 

September? Say whaaat?

 Where did the summer go? One minute it was April and the snow was finally melting, now suddenly I had to turn the car's heater on driving home last night. September first, meh actually I'm okay with this, most of the summer here was hot, humid with wild fires everywhere (*cough* *cough*). Then by middle of July we started having weekly tornados, especially where I work (thanks climate change), so I'm okay with some cooler fall weather.

The fall Fairs have started with their delicious "bad for me food", so I may take one in. I used to hate September for many years because it meant the end of summer but mostly because it was back to school and I hated every second that I was in school. However I'm over that now, September and October can be great months, warm days with cool nights and noooo mosquitoes, (very important in Canada).

Anyway back to school Tuesday for the kids, then Canadian fake Thanksgiving, Halloween, then Thanksgiving for the crazy people south of Canada, then Christmas, Happy New Year then we start over. I need to sit down. 

Is this mic on?

 Hello people.. well if anyone is still around? 🤷 I have not been posting mostly because life moves on. I actually think about the friends I made on here a lot. I think that I started posting around 2006 or 2007, I can't believe in a few more years it will be twenty years since I started. 

 On a sad note for me my mom passed in June, I have very mixed emotions about it, on one hand I miss her but on the other hand she is at peace now. Her dimentia can no longer humiliate her. 

My job is going well, I have a great boss and I enjoy working with my coworkers. I'm in a relationship now, it's been a year in April, we have been living together since last October. We are on vacation together at the moment. 

Take care everyone, I just wanted to stop in and say hello. I have come to also realize that the people in this blog world are very special and beautiful people inside. When I see all the other social media sites and the people on there.. I think how lucky I was to find the blogosphere instead. 🥰

The lazy post.

I'm going to take the lazy way out and post memes. For this rock star meme,

 I'm Grey Pasta! Rock on baby!

This is a very handy chart to have. No spiders were harmed in the making of this meme.

We are actually having a week like this now. Lol

Non comedian.

The roommate and I had our first argument three weeks ago. Apparently I'm not as funny as I think I am. Also I believe it to be a cultural difference, he is Mexican and I'm Smarty Pantsican. My humour can be a bit sarcastic and I like picking at people, one day I crossed the line and "POOF" hurt feelings. It was also revealed to me that it had been building for a long time. Well anyway it's been smoothed over and I will be a little more cautious with what I say regarding how he may interpret things. He can be a jerk at times but he also does a lot of nice things for me. I on the other hand am a perfect roommate and he needs to realize that. Just to be clear, we are just friends. We did get together a year ago but he didn't want anything serious so we became friends. I was worried about living together as he has an online temper, so as a test-run we went away for a few days together to Montreal.I had a great time with him, I decided to take him up on his offer and rent a bedroom. It turn out to be exactly what I needed, winter seemed to fly by and it's spring already. We made it!

Hello?

Wow, it's been over a year since my last post. I guess I was hoping for things to be better in the world but unfortunately not. There have been a lot of changes and also no changes at all if that makes sense. One thing different is that I am living in the city, I left the farm for the winter, I found it too isolated and lonely there. I'm renting a bedroom from a friend, he has to travel a lot so I'm often alone for weeks on end. I get a beautiful three bedroom condo to myself for the price of a bedroom. I'm not dating anyone and to be honest I'm fine with that. I have made a few gay friends and whenever we are not in a covid lockdown we get together as much as we can. I know there has been a lot of sadness in the blog world over the last year. I would like to say things will get better but I don't really know what to say.

The Day I met the devil.

  Yesterday was an anniversary date but not a good one. It's hard to believe that time has moved on but here we are. It's been one year since I met "Mr X". I remember that day so clearly and how I thought I had started a new chapter in my life.

 Sorry I'm not blogging much, one of the main reasons is the new blogger format. I no longer have the option to revert back to the old format. Not only is the new format "user hostile" but it seems to be incompatible with my phone, there is a constant saving cycle that saves the page every three letters that I type and it freezes the page for three seconds, so it literally takes about a minute to type one sentence. By the end of one paragraph, my patience is finished. 

 The other reason I stopped writing was because of Mr X and the crazy Pandora's box that I opened. I will get into that another day but he really shattered my belief in the good of people. 

 Still, maybe everything happens for a reason and because of meeting Mr X I have made some gay friends in this city. Also because of meeting him I have met two great guys. One of those guys I'm going on a second date with tonight. Who knows where this will or will not lead but at least I'm back in the saddle again. This guy was really pursuing me and I finally said yes, I really like him, he's really nice. Oh, did mention that he's a cute Latino man, ten years younger than me? Yaa Steve is back bitches! Hahaha, me funny. ;)