Addicted Much?

 Today on the radio the host was talking about how so many of us are addicted to our phones. I have to admit that lately it's scary how I have become addicted. With me it's not so much my phone as it's the internet on my phone, I would be glued to a laptop if I had one with net access. They were asking if you ever look around to watch other people and how they are using, or not using their phones.

 I find it creepy actually, I see people out for an evening meal, sitting in silence across from each other texting or scrolling on their phones. When I am waiting at a light and I look around, all the other drivers stopped in both directions are on their phones, even sometimes I have to honk because they don't notice the light changed green. The people walking with the light have their faces stuck to their screens. Nothing gets my hackles up faster than someone who keeps checking their phone when they are supposed to be speaking to me. I was at a fall fair and during a horse show I noticed half the people on the bleachers across from me were texting and scrolling. Everybody is on their phone, grocery shopping, in the checkout line, sitting next to me in the cafeteria, sitting next to me in the washroom, at the barber, on the bus, at the back of church, in line at the coffee shop. I have this vision in my head that somewhere, someone says, "oh would you be able to hold on for just one minute, I'm about to cum" or "I need to wipe myself"!

 As for me, I think it gives me a false sense of connection, I feel like I'm with people when I am on line. I have become very addicted to my phone. When I am not on it for a while, I feel like I need a fix. I can't tell you how many times I've grabbed the phone to just check for texts or emails, promising to only be a few minutes, suddenly it's three hours later. I often fill the sink with water to do the dishes or put a load of laundry on, suddenly it's bedtime and I didn't do my housework. Sometimes in the evening, I tell myself to make sure no one is trying to reach me, just a quick glance and then I will make supper. The next thing I know it's nine at night so I don't eat anything because it's too late.

 My bills for my data plan are so high at times that I would be too embarrassed to tell you. Many days I don't see much difference between me and some guy who spends time and money for that next drink. It takes away from some of my other hobbies, many nights I stayed up too late because of being on line, it has caused me to be late for work, it has kept me from visiting mom. It also really helps with my procrastination, I can waste time on line instead of doing the hard things in life. I better work on getting this under control. I realize that I am going to have to put this stupid thing down......... tomorrow....... maybe.